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Bio: Susan Langer was born in the U.S. and currently lives in Nashville Tennessee. She worked as an RN for 30 years until retirement and has her Psychology degree from St. Joseph’s College in Maine. She has been blogging since retirement in 2010. Susan’s uses AllPoetry.com as the website where most of her poetry can be found. She uses both her full name, Susan Langer, and in later poetry uses  Susans Soul as her pen name. Susan blogs on her own website, Susans Soul, with content including… Susans Soul Thoughts,  Poetry and Prose, and The Inner Soul (Mental Health, Inspiration), all from a Christian viewpoint. Susan also runs an Inspiration/Motivation blog which is named To Reach for the Light. She uses this site to provide information about her freelancing experience, resume, and portfolio.

Susan loved writing and poetry since she was a child able to read and write. She is currently writing her first book, a memoir with a working title, Toward the Light. The memoir includes her personal experiences with childhood sexual abuse and includes narrative, poetry, and prose writings from her journals during therapy for her abuse. It also includes poetry and prose from AllPoetry.com.

SAMPLE POETRY

Sweet Family Survival

How do you survive when you’re five
And your father doesn’t even bother
To respect your God-given right
Not to spend the night in his bed?

When you’re five. you survive
By detaching from the pain of reality
And attaching to a dream, your reality.

You inhabit small dark corners or rooms
Such as theater balconies and bathrooms,
Where curled up in a ball, you resume
The position you learned in your mother’s womb.

You are safe, you survive, you’re alive
And the child in you still prefers these places
To all the wide open spaces

For it was in those balconies and bathrooms
That you learned Sweet FAMILY Survival.

A poem about childhood sexual abuse first written in 1990.
© Susan Langer     #family • abuse • pain • survival

 

Visceral Senses

The touch of you;
visceral senses of
us together then.
Lust haunts me still.

Where did it go…
the electric spark
that could light
love in our souls?

Ah, but that day
came when the
spark was no more.
Absence inhabited.

Sleep a reprieve, but
my dreams of you
left me to twist and
turn…haunting spirit.

Finding no rest
I sought to find
peace, release in
my grieving soul.

Diminished health,
left me wanderIng
in search for…
…your touch
…the spark.
Not finding a
surrogate for
your soul drug,
I journeyed back…

to my convent.
Sisters of Mary,
seeking God’s
forgivIng mercy.

WordPress Challenge to use (5) Words: | SPARK | TOUCH | TWIST | HEALTH | REST |

©  Susan Langer    #article poems • poem poems • sadness poems • relationships poems

 

Eyes

I look into your eyes
Eyes full of wisdom
Eyes full of strength
Eyes full of pain

I look into your eyes
You look away quickly
You show only wisdom
You show only strength

Hiding the pain
So that I see it not
But I saw
But I saw

What led to hiding?
What gave you strength?
What gave you pain?
Answers I have none

I only see your wisdom
I only see your strength
I only see your pain
I witness your hiding

© Susan Langer    #eyes poems • wisdom poems • strength poems • pain poems • hiding poems

 

Soulless Poverty

I

A poverty of the mind is soulless thought. Privately proving poverty does not exist. Soulless poverty is seen in with visions of images …commercialization of the soul. With the privacy of soulless poverty shown through empty bank accounts with debts owed to a soulless humanity while saying to themselves, “I am richly blessed.”

II

Humanity strives to prove it has a soul. Soullessness is shown by images…babies crying, mothers weeping, happy family faces gathered. But wise men know poverty when it is seen and there is soulless poverty throughout the tribe of mankind. The tribe swells as pockets empty except for plastic carded purchases from soulless vendors.

III

Fat pockets full of money owed to the fat bankers with plastic rectangles paying for soulless merchandise. All are part of the soullessness of the tribal society of mankind, while the homeless live with less poverty, at least owning their clothes and cardboard beds. They know true poverty within their soul and cry out for humanity to listen as their trumpets blare. But the soulless tribe is deaf to true poverty.

Vignette
© Susan Langer    #society poems • poverty poems • sad poems • cynical poems


SAMPLE BLOGS ARTICLES, also includes Short Nonfiction

Children and Citizenship

What are you modeling for your children at home and in schools?

 Today’s society bombards people daily with information from news sources and social media about politics and current trend/events. It is important for our children to learn about citizenship, government make-up, and voting as a responsibility. Our children need an active knowledge of Civics and Government at home and in our schools.

I believe that teaching about government systems begins in our homes as our children are taught the hierarchy of the family and the family rules. This style of teaching from a young age prepares our children to understand and participate actively in their school hierarchy and rules at age-appropriate learning levels. It is then a natural transition to more encompassing topics of Civics and Government.

I also believe that parents active in government from local to national and international government lead their children into active participation and citizenship. Vital to the continuation of our country, Abraham Lincoln in his Gettysburg speech stated, 
“Government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the Earth. – Abraham Lincoln “ and that remains the principle since the United States was formed.

Another key reason that teaching of Civics and Government is essential is that our children can not understand History without the context of how governments run.
 Our children discuss topics such as The Declaration of Independance, Cival Rights, Separation of Church and State, and our American history of the wars fought. These subjects must include Civics and Government in context of how our country was formed and how we have progressed through the years.

“What is leadership and/otbwhat type of leadership?” begin the questions our children ask, even as they see television news of the President and his diplomatic trips and meetings at home and overseas. If parents don’t know the answer to these questions and Civics is not taught in school, our children learn from their models that Government is not important, or worse, that we have no choice but to be powerless victims in our society.

Remember that children learn from what they see practiced more than what they are being told. What are you modeling at home and in your schools? Are you rearing active participating citizens or powerless victims? The choice and responsibility. Choose wisely.


A Moment of Stillness

in the stillness, a moment of brilliance

I’ve heard from many people who say, “I think too much,” or “I can’t get out of my own head.”
This is pretty common. Thinking isn’t the problem, but the struggle comes when we’re constantly spinning stories in our heads and getting caught up in them.

Our minds jump from one thing to another, seeking distraction or avoiding difficulty. We can’t focus, we can’t be present in the moment, and we feel the need to be constantly busy.

The answer, I’ve found, is finding stillness.
Our mental processes — jumping around and distraction and being caught up in stories — don’t have to cause anxiety, actually. They’re not only common, I think it’s the normal human condition. If this is how our minds are most of the time, then feeling afflicted by this condition is probably going to cause us constant anxiety.

Instead, I find it more helpful to learn to:
* be aware of these mental conditions;
* be present with the mental pattern and stay with it; and
* work with the condition in a mindful way.
The only way to do all of that is to start with stillness.

A Moment of Stillness

Take a minute out of your busy day and try to do the following:

* Sit still and look away from all devices and other activities. Just sit there, maybe with your eyes closes, maybe looking at nature or a wall.
* Take a moment to assess your condition. How do you feel? Are you tired, anxious, frustrated, calm, happy? What state is your mind in?
* Assess how you’ve been behaving recently (today, or just in the last hour) … have you been constantly distracted? In a state of busyness? Focused? Procrastinating? Anxious or fearful? Irritated? Feeling down?
* Stay with these feelings for a moment, just being curious and non-judgmental about them.
* Face each of the feelings you’re noticing, and notice the mental pattern that caused it. If you’re frustrated, are you stuck in a resentful story about someone else or your current situation? If you’re anxious, is there some desired outcome that you’re holding tightly to? If you’re feeling down, are you comparing your situation with some ideal that you don’t have?
* Bring your attention to your body. How does it feel? What sensations can you notice in your head, neck, arms, hands, torso, hips, butt, legs, feet?
* Can you find gratitude in this moment? Can you find love or compassion, for yourself or others?

You don’t have to do all of these things each time you sit still, but these are all things you can try. Pick a couple and focus on them for a minute, then next time pick a couple more. Take a few deep breaths, then give yourself permission to return to work or whatever activity you’re doing.

Cultivating Stillness

As you can see, it just takes a minute of stillness to work with your spinning stories and other mental patterns. We can use this minute of stillness to bring less busyness and anxiety and more calmness, mindfulness and gratitude to our lives. It just takes a bit of cultivation.

Some ways to cultivate stillness in your life:
* Set reminders to get away from technology for just a minute or two, and sit still somewhere.
* Build time in your day for just sitting. It could be sitting meditation, or simply sitting somewhere pleasant and doing nothing.
* Find time for disconnected reading — using a paper book or dedicated ebook reader.
* Have tea in the morning or afternoon. Just sit and drink tea, noticing its smell, flavor, warmth.
* Do a couple yoga poses — child’s pose for a minute or two, for example, or downward facing dog or pigeon’s pose. This can be a meditation, where you’re staying with your breath and body for a couple minutes and getting a stretch in as well.
* Go for a walk. While this isn’t technically stillness, it’s moving your body in a healthy way while not allowing yourself to be distracted.

When you notice your mind racing, when you notice distractions and procrastination, when you notice anxiety or resentment … take a stillness break.

 

And in this stillness, notice all of the wonders of life that we take for granted.
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“Let us be silent, that we may hear the whispers of the gods.” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

As I Write

As I write, my inner soul travels to my inner self, my essence, the reader’s desires, and my Creator, The Eternal One of the Holy Book. I journey with a few necessary tools within my suitcase. My needs minimal, I pack my courage, the present moment, my senses, paper, and pen. I invite my Creator so that I experience both His knowledge and wisdom. I look within my soul, owned by my Creator, using my five senses of sight, sound, smell, touch, and taste and invite their experience.

When I set pen to paper or fingers to keyboard, what happens is magical. Initially cautious, I let go my inhibitions and nothing more exists, but my thoughts, my poetry, my writing, and the connection with my inner soul and my Creator. Did you wish to joinery with me? You may experience true feeling of joy, ecstasy, peace, pain, sadness, fear. But you control the journey. Follow me and experience your inner soul journey and your Creator.

Susans Soul
Https://susanssoul.website/
#writing #soul #Creator.


If you wish further examples of my writing, I invite you to visit

my blog, Susans Soul.